The dichotomy of an idiot

These are my two primary trading accounts, CDC and CB. I primarily purchased on CDC during the runup of last bullrun, and held like a demented toddler.

For my CB account I purchased some on the run up, and most during the bear market following last bull, namely around 2023. It essentially became my meme coin account vs my mainstream addoption account.

It's harrowing to see how much of a scamcoin CDC had become and how much faith I put into it and the company, versus something like SOL which I watched from the sidelines run 15$ to 250$ in 2021, or ETH which id heard about from a minecraft mod in 2012ish.

Ive gotten back in to do some DD on the other meme coins I'm suffering heavy losses with, and im struggling to find reasons on why they would stop lagging and join the current bullrun. Coins like VET, POLY, ALGO, and MANA are hard to have faith in right now as it seems they have no position within the market or ecosystem.

Mainly I just find it interesting to see how the ecosystem and public opinion changes so drastically in 3-5 years, as well as the trust you're able to put into exchanges who have a vetted interest in pumping and dumping their own coin on users.